lullubies for the deaf

2008-05-22T05:40:00.000-07:00

it kills the heart and it shall attack the brain.there is no blood but there is so much pain.questions for the human sanity without scars on wrists or facial vanity,i serious am amused.maybe even confused.it got my thinking bruised.but holding on to memories was never an excuse.i miss us.i loved us.and still do.you got your funny back.after weeks of pox attacks.maybe you're missing the rack,but still the gorgeous never did lack.funny how you want to hold on to me.i tought im done and through by you.so awak!princess you were on someone's birthday,and princess forever you will be,like the games we play.

2008-04-12T19:37:00.000-07:00

Then tiny vessels oozed into your neck and formed the bruises that you said you didn't want to fade.But they did and so did I that day.All I see are dark gray clouds in the distance moving closer with every hour So when i ask, Is something wrong? You're damn right there is, but we can't talk about it now.
And i love your new word bastardism.The dramatics were apparently an escalator to popular.When things seemed obvious,dont remain oblivious.Don't be afraid,because im here.Always.

2008-04-05T23:10:00.000-07:00

nur amalia.bigger.happier.stronger.the million dollar woman.SQ's waiting.make the birds proud.jude is stupid for saying stuffs to gwen he dont mean.die laaaaaaaa.

2008-03-30T00:10:00.000-07:00

we laugh when we fight.and i still dont get it,why are you afraid.you're not doing enough,but hey!the chocolates are great.

if you're listening,sing it back.string from your tether unwinds.up and outward to bind. i was spinning free with a little sweet and simple numbing me.

dig.bury me underneath.everything that i am rearranging.dig and bury me underneath,everything that i was slowly changing.

and you were there.and i was every question that never had an answer.i see right through you.and never even noticed that,there always was a reason that we were never meant to be left alone.
this feels like neverending.

2008-03-21T09:25:00.000-07:00

i love the post office building at geylang.the view from the top was high.i love labrador park.the benches in the area was high.i love science centre.the darkness at the back was high.i love gotham's toilet.the security guard must be high.i love RP.the soft grass made me high.i love botanic gardens.the cold ground was already high.i love her room.its her that makes me high.

2008-03-15T11:25:00.000-07:00

i can wait.

i will gaze.

to keep you warm.

or to set you ablaze.

i got no more secrets.the shade you hide.it shall collide.if you know the answer.i'll swallow your pride.im waiting.a sentence,3 words.i shall gaze.undeterred.so if im special,why am i not preferred.

2008-03-06T09:54:00.000-08:00

i woke with a peculiar yet happy dream.i'll converse it differently,not much,but slightly,to make it more silver screen.

but too no avail, to no avail. snort it out on the skin of the screen.with this self made bomb strapped on my chest,i think ive made a mistake,this shouldnt be me,i dont think i'll go to heaven for this.her eyes were the loveliest ive seen.there is still time.time to show that i could actually learn from my mistakes,and at least regret them sooner than required.they are gonna be angry,that ive turned against them.a traitor among traitors,the way i see it.she made me reconsider,and so i shall drop this lunacy,and save my life,with the hundreds of innocent lives im supposed to eradicate.now i realised the true meaning of life.its not about vengeance,reprisal or retaliation.its about understanding.a pull of the trigger,the tiny piece of metal flew,and it burst through my system.i was too late.intelligence showed why the are acumen and on the ball.it was too late.im ashamed of my intended actions,and she will regret not changing me.i loved her,and i let my ideas and ego get the better of me.she falls to her knees,crying still,and maybe,for many sleepless nights.i shall watch over her,and lement.the men in blue gather around me,protecting the lives of others.my eyes are dwindling into the abyss of the unforseen darkness.i am dying,and together with the fear of innocent people.and with one last breath,i spoke,as forgiving as i could,into her ears,i love you,and i am sorry.

no to terrorism.yes to sleepless nites watching online movies.

2008-03-01T21:06:00.000-08:00

she wants a carnival.she'll get a carnival.but i dont have a carnival.i have 5 bucks instead.be a virus,and travel the world.we'll get attached,and no cure will ever seperate us.the fate of the male species will forever be doomed,for as long as the sybian is around.for now,yellow is my favorite color.

2008-02-23T12:03:00.000-08:00

Blood is bright.my eyes reddened when i saw those marks.neither dream nor destroy,that shall be my triumph and ultimately,my tragedy.the fear of ideas is being replaced by a sensation of utter comfort.as quoted by the famous V,"ideas are bulletproof."mines gone to waste.i lie with deliberate negligence.it is business but not as usual.and i meant loving someone.i believed that i have perform my tasks to my fullest of capabilities.it behooves one,on such occasions,to illuminate the character of the departed for those listening.but the departed got other ideas.and i was being used.i see things as they are,as they were and as they will be.but you are the things im not,and were not,and never will be.some words in my head spoke,some stayed silent.like the fateful monday.but we dont need to recount every sermon and eulogy.afterall,you were there.im not telling,because it hurts me.you may have forgotten,in the waking hours,what i felt that day.words make sense of everything.from the sweetest to sour ones.it gives you peace.it gives you meaning.we should be able to wake up by 20 years old.or 20 years young.A is for android.im becoming one sooner or later.i need forgetting lessons.i'll probably flunk it when it comes to chapter love.i saw the best of times when im scrubbing my room of memories,I don’t regret them,but ive saddened myself.and just when you avoid it,it would take you back,at a comfortable pace,at their terrible leisure.i take blame rather readily.its a saleable skill if the buyer’s a bully.or an opportunist.i promised her that I’ll remember.because that’s all I could.i turn my head,and you may go where you want.i turn it again,and you stay there till you rot.i have no face,but I live and die by my crooked teeth.thats who I am to you.im your key.i always unlock your happiness.or at least try to.a defiance of natural laws,announcing a disobedience of moral values.love the elders.they are more knowledgeable.i was like a groom when I saw your mom.full of excitement glorying in the unknown future rushing to greet.to obey.to respect.now,I shall face the music.without a dance partner,not even with my dancing shoes,I shall tango through this.with love,with tenderness,with inexpressible sorrow,I told the heavens to whelm my fears.and for that I was exiled,as if my grief weren’t bad enough.the sawdust taste of futility.eleven hour days will kill me one day.the world healed itself right before my very eyes.such a random post,and I am sleepy,I shall dream,maybe of you,maybe of desire,and I shall wake up,knowing its going to be the same,all over again.hello you.hold on,and do the right things today.now go figure.

2008-02-17T18:15:00.000-08:00

remember me when you're the one who's silver screen.remember me when you're the one you always dreamed.remember me when everyone's noses start to bleed,remember me,special needs.
just 19 and sucker's dream,i guess i tought you had the flavor.just 19 and dream obscene with six months off for bad behavior.

2008-02-15T16:02:00.000-08:00

beware!!its in red and and a dash of black,and its armed with loads of love!its gonna be forever strapped on,and i'll smile everytime im gonna tell time!!some lucky mermaid or killer whale is wearing my lucky black timekeeper,so you better stay low if im off to some sea in the near future.but nevertheless,im elated!and remember the deal.sexy,you are most ideal.beautiful,part of your appeal.still,this gift,its so unreal.so no more tears!i'll reinstate the smile form ear to ear,like a cycle,im your ferris wheel.

2008-02-05T07:15:00.001-08:00

in a month,the stuffs on the chipboard will be down.in a year,the memories and fun will be forgotten.in a decade,i'll become a whole new stranger beside you.i see those things coming.i see dead dreams and deja vu nightmares.im keeping the stuffs i hope for you to achieve.im keeping the saved massages.you know you have issues when you start to think about life and death while listening to one by U2.you know you have issues when you are listening to black rose.why the fuck are they in my ipod anyway.but no!!im still planning of setting up my farm!im an expert with the shovel and earth remover.earthworms beware!i'll burn your homes!i'll steal your kids,and sell them off to slutty fishermen with expensive fishing rods!but for now till whenever it will be,i'll join the millions of cannot make it nerds who jerks off to pornotube.guess what im gonna do next.probably nothing.and why do i keep looking at my fone for every hr,even though i know no ones gonna massage.

i honestly dont know.

2008-02-02T06:59:00.000-08:00

ive got it all figured out!farmer john!thats my future!where i could lay low from all the harsh realities of life.australia!cannabis sativa plantation!i'll make stressed up people get better.join me for joints!how i wish i could slap some people.people who can't think.but maybe its for the better.let them think for themselves,and learn it the hard way.now i know im not superhuman.gone are my powers to smile when im in their company.me against the monster.leaves are the best memorandum where you really mean it.how i wish i got some people's powers,where words are sugar and you'll fall for it.and how do elephants take a shit?will you count me in?been away for awhile now.and lastly,sorry for the tears i made that rolled down your cheeks.

2008-01-27T00:21:00.000-08:00

i dont have to lose for you to win.we could emerge victorious together.your pupils are magnetic.it could disconnect the dots running in my head and make me disorientated.like your kisses as well.science did me,and the center we had crazy moments.stop putting voltages through me like the way you did.its gonna make me vicious.but to tell you the truth,its what ive been dying for.you look fabulous.and i miss my music.

2008-01-19T08:56:00.000-08:00

say flower.say smile.say care.and now,who do u see. daaaaaamnnn!!the pictures!i want them back!!!!i want our pictures!!

2008-01-11T09:52:00.000-08:00

when 5 days seems like 50,you know you gonna cherish your saturdays.and when that day comes,i'll still look over you and rub your cute chubby feet..i love dogs.they bark when they get angry.but keep'em on a leash,and its more like an empty vessel.its sickening.that's why i'll take the other route.i'll be in guards.and oh,don't leave me high and dry.

2007-12-29T08:55:00.000-08:00

jackass sounds good.someone's got an ego to work on.im your gold medallist.im your dinner bringer.im your hair sniffer.my nose is your victim.your green tea is my addiction.but im worried.now i dont make sense.im just tired of blogging.should i stop?maybe tomorrow.maybe not.ensuring your sorrow.bye for now.adieu cher..

2007-12-25T04:22:00.000-08:00

minute maids from Italy anyone?the elephants and I,who will she miss when all the leaves and trees consume the soldier?the times spent on bus rides when she's happy,is she happy?we could be gay,meat buffet,were they kinky on valentines day?chocolates being free together,always puts a smile on me forever.

you wont understand what was written.i will call you,after im being envied with green.now go figure.

2007-12-23T09:24:00.000-08:00

they seem to have a huge colouring book.where the favourite has always been yellow.they will paint the skies yellow too,and never shall we see a darker colour.they have ample brown for ample stupid vocations,because brown will always be the lower class.even the seas got shades of black.but never shall it be brown.never it shall be us.. and dogs cant touch me.dogs judge base on nothing.dogs get angry.dogs have egos.2 years to be one,and after that,i'll be immortalised.serve and fuck off.

2007-12-22T19:51:00.000-08:00

maybe its time we save the earth.we'll take some photographs,and show her what she deserves.it hurts to see you cry,your death starts from birth.i love you and i'll wait out loud,for ethics and for its worth.

embrace your inner cheese.when softness makes one agitated,your emotions to him is such a tease.much to his expertise,to me its like a disease,the opportunity he'll seize,and with your kindness,he'll win with such ease.these are no foreign a.b.c's,when your own wealth is for him to please.the open doors with a single key,only you can shut the painful nominees.ive ran out of rhymes,or i could end this sentence with im japanese.or better still,i love you,and i'll wait,in any weather whatever degrees.

2007-12-20T23:53:00.000-08:00

the monks in tibet keeps their hair long.she could feel the games that play us.i cant help but wait.i didnt avoid her,i simply wanna miss her.forget that cuban macbeth.shakespeare hate your poems,and im the lost romeo character.we could dance to the taliban disco.im your elephant till you could open up your heart.and once it does,jude's waiting.and monkeys masterbate to bald indians.

2007-12-12T10:31:00.000-08:00

multi purpose abrasions and the day i met you hair.

2007-11-09T22:09:00.000-08:00

jesus christ monkey balls,ive just realised that im second best to her.long walks and 7 rounds of he is legend,i smiled at my own hysteria.im still unhappy bout my skin tone and i still am disgusted when i look in the mirror.you inked my lavender sky,now im gonna paint the rest of my book with different shades of green and grey.watch out world!!im coming for you!!till my next discovered new reader,i shall stop right here.and to the next potential reader,note to self:..no,not mushroom cheese prata..i'll promise myself to be your aphrodite,and not a hopeless romantic.

i loveeeeeee dillinger escape plan.thank you for making me run.

2007-11-07T21:27:00.000-08:00

Once upon a time, there lived a young man, who shall forever be lost in his own fantasies and dreams. Dreams of delirium, fantasies made of the wildest of imaginations. He wonders from place to place, island to island and along empty shores and broken interiors. On an obscure evening, he ventured into an unknown territory, where the village people look at him with viscera eyes. He felt welcomed here, and so he uses his charm to woo the villages. They felt his innocence, his friendliest and the most important thing, they felt his fears. For months passed by, he stay with the people, exchanged knowledge and comprehension, and he felt he found his home. His belonging. He felt neither menace nor treat, and the people treat him even better. But they knew his weakness. His fear. This is the village where people come and leave either a better person, or a broken individual. On one fine evening, judging from the shadows, most probably it was around 6 in the evening, where half the village was relegated back into their huts, came in a woman. No, a woman was deemed too plain. A lady with absolute beauty. The people knew her, but yet they stay distant. The young man, just noticing her, had his eyes transfixed. For years, he had not loved. And now, he saw the one where made his eyes sharpened, body weakened and speech impaired. She smiled, and he was left standing there. Days passed, and soon enough, he got the courage to talk to her. The hardest part was always the start. But they set of chatting, and without a care, without noticing the shadows creeping in, they found each other .He was in love. They were euphoric together, and he liked that, he liked the commonness. They sat down at the highest of hills, talked and laugh, rubbed the feet’s of the lovers and talk even more. With fingers in her hair, then came the moment he’ll treasure for eternity. They kissed.
A few weeks passed, and they exchanged love like lovers do. On a particular day, the village chief came up to him, and said he could finally leave. He battled his fear, but the war was just starting. The young man didn’t understand. So he stayed on in the village even further. Days passed, he was troubled by those words. The woman herself, also distant from him. But he didn’t cared, for now, he had love by his side. Time passed, and finally, the change was evident in the woman. He grew worried, like any normal man. Soon enough, with the sun setting and rising a few more times, he got the news he dreaded. He wasn’t the man she was in love with anymore. He felt lost. Even more so distressed. He reminisced the times, he cried. Something he never did for a long time. Soon enough, the woman was gone. He felt sad, even more so angry. Angry at the games that played him. He wasn’t dreaming anymore, he wasn’t fantasizing for long. He search for the village chief, with fists tightened. Face to face, his eyes reddened with madness and tears, the other with calmness and without qualms. The village chief, looked at him, smiled, and said “don’t let this feeling drown you. Jealousy isn’t an emotion, it’s a weapon. Use it, for one last time.” And the village man vanished. He was staring at himself. All these people, gone, like his imagination. He finally realized, it’s all a fake. It’s not about how you battle your fears, its how the fear will win your battles. He walked out, seeing only the open land, with no one in sight. He felt tremendously alone. With all his might, he took out his heart, red as his eyes, and felt it beat slowly in his hands. He fell to the ground. It beats slowly now, and he knew what’s going to happen next. There stood in front of him, the woman. The woman he shall forever love. Again, he remembered the times, but now slowly fading. He stretched out his arms, handing over his heart to her. “I have always given you my heart, and now I’m giving it to your for one last time. I loved you, and I shall always do.” with one last glisten of the eye, he said goodbye in the redness of his own bleeding heart.

2007-10-13T17:33:00.000-07:00

"closer...closer..lean on me now,lean on me now.." closer-travis

im beginning to like travis.cant wait for book in and see the malay army again.shit im missing leia's touch like hell.i ate a little for the first day of Shawal,but i'll get back my weight for you oke.love can be a funny thing.i'll laugh till i get paranoid,and even when i dont get the punchline,im thinking something's amiss.but trust and faith is my weapon of choice.paint the dark skies blue.im your kite runner,mind you,it's a great book thus far,and for everything i do,its gotta be for you.when i get my van,or bike,or lets just say,license,im gonna cover every inch of temasek's road and discover new stargazing spots.till next time,selamat hari raya.and to leelie,go and bathe la!!

2007-10-06T20:05:00.000-07:00

taurans can tell lies.correction:taurans get confused at lies.to even decide,why should i even try.on the phone,you said you were not enjoying the night.my sleep lost its magical fright.but you blogged you had a jolly good time.now my paranoia just scaled new great heights.dismantle my ego lego.yorke's just a close friend,so i'll go with the flow.love your new volcoms!and those pants seriously is the bomb!recruit life sucks.full battle order is making me shorter.i hate being small.feels like i cant protect you from fire breathing dragons or 10 foot hairy indians.sweets!!why ah,everytime i meet you,you still remain as beautiful,gorgeous and funny as ever??tak fair to the max you know!10 weeks not to POP,10 weeks to the overseas adventure!till the next time,so long and goodnight,and i love you,and im dying for you say those words too....and oh,shopping with virgos kills blood cells in your feet.

2007-09-29T11:04:00.000-07:00

and i've lost my sense of humor.now its all hatred.but i still love you.its no longer a wheeze.now its all about detest.but i still love you.2 in the picture,1 in the frame.i shall trust you,because i love you.and i shall wait for you,because you assured me to.sweets i love you,and i hope that's enough to make us last.no more crying,now im all for you.you are stronger!you make the decisions!the virgo,for tonight and every sleepless night,i shall love you,till the day you call off the time off.

yours sincerely,
farisbydawi

2007-09-27T10:24:00.000-07:00

she was out with someone i dont associate with the word trust.i wanted to surprise her,but my phonecall gave me one instead.i cant hate you,not now or ever,but im gonna snap if u go out with him again.no more sleepness nights,and im sori,but i sense lies in between your lines.but i made a promise on the rooftop,to give you my all,and the ties that binds.

2007-09-09T09:51:00.000-07:00

forget the old ones,we'll start new memories.forget the popeyes,we'll shove spinach and maybe the fries will come.why am i so weak?maybe its because i got weak blood cells.your coffee and brewery are the best ever.to australia,paris or even rome,we'll backpack and be cool.so u got a hot boss to drool.too bad in your life,he's there to rule.while you take orders and flatten your ass on the stool.i adore you,like a pauper,maybe even a fool.i'll be in the army,u'll go back to school.our rooftop moments are forever.hope you have forgotten youknowwho,because he's getting on my nerves.oh have i mentioned,you got the sexiest and craziest curves.that's what ive observed.back to ex,he got what he deserved.in our life,i dont even want him in the reserves.you and your face are my latest loves.i cant wait to perform for you.it moved like lightning,so frightening yet very much enlightening.your every kiss is like the first ive had with you,so fresh mresh presh cresh.nites baby!!and oh,hope you enjoy the gifts.

2007-08-24T21:27:00.000-07:00

stranger's candy takes you where you wanna be..the places we shall go,the things we shall do,the jokes that we shall laugh to,i just hope to make you smile.well,we got our love impact disco we could go to.and i'll piggy back you again,but this time,i shall prevail!oke enough of me blabbering,now let us see whats in my mind thats in store for you..(1)the beach!!why of course,its lepak and feel the sea breeze time!and i wanna rub your feet with beach sand.(2)movie marathon!oke im sure we'll find some time for this,but ironiclinic,we never watch any movies before..well,except rush hour 3,on our first day of togetherness.(3)Gmax!!well this is a random tought,but i would love to see you screaaaaaam!(4)thai massage!with a body like yours,you gonna make all the thai massuers turn lesbian,and besides,you need one a massage because you deserve it.(5)celebrate your post birthday!simply because i wanna make you the happiest girl on ageing a year older,while im shaping six packs on my cheeks.(6)food hunt!...self explanatory.(7)stay in at an expensive hotel!oke this is also a random tought,but im sooooo longing to sing you to sleep.(8)shopping!!from orhard to bugis to little india,prepare for some serious atm card swiping and crisp $10 notes being exchanged.(9)star gazings!lets go to the airport runways!we'll chillout and gaze at stars while see planes takeoff!(10)...and lastly...simply,gazing at your face close up again.just to tell you that im never far away.

2007-08-20T04:31:00.000-07:00

now that i have someone to hold,these are the feelings that doesnt need to be told.from this youth we have till the day we'll get old,i'll turn ashes to gold for you,freeze you when its burning and hug you when its cold.now,i have loved you,and its never going to end....for nur amagwenia,im your new and improved jesus,heaven sent.

2007-08-11T20:09:00.000-07:00

The post-date recap is a form of mental torture.the endless wondering,gazing and lazing,there seems to be no cure.now that you saved me,i shall love you evermore.pardon my sillyness,my bodily sickness and if im immature.i'll watch over you leia,we got each other,and we'll savour all thats pure.

2007-08-06T07:53:00.000-07:00

let's indentify the signs.of everything cupid and love of different kinds.to read between the lines,of affectionate designs.at such great heights,im not afraid to look down anymore.we could fly with the wind,it breezes through us.with my hand through yours,and yours through mine,we'll hug,and savour every moment,forgetting any torment,and i'll lose my mind to the sheer passion of your wonderful kiss.and never in my life,have i smelled such sweetenss.i love every minute of us,i really do,and i cant believe ive fallen in love so easily,but then again,u made it looked easy.i dont mean to be mean,but i do feel green,hope it wasnt obscence,now you are stuck in between,but don't you think its time to come clean?i promised to wait,because ive fallen for you,don't keep me waiting,im forever elating.hey princess do you hear me?im your darth,without the secrets and that black emo vest.once you are free again,im gonna take care of the rest.

2007-06-17T05:25:00.000-07:00

one day,i shall rule the world...with you...one day i shall climb up to heaven on a ladder...with you..one day i shall eat with my butt...with you....one day i shall take my money back from mel gibson...with you....one day i shall have a good time with weapons....with you....i day i'll say mmppff mupf mummff muh mupf mumf...with you.....and one day,i shall love you...which i already do......miss wati gangster wankster gincu for blood prankster...

2007-06-13T01:59:00.000-07:00

im drunk and you're beautiful..by tomoro morning,i'll be sober,and you're still beautiful.home less for a while,but you're still beautiful.lost my source of entertainment,but you're still beautiful.counted the turns of my ageless clock,and you're still beautiful.covered all frets on my string machine,u remained beautiful...looking through your pictures again....now thats gorgeous.

2007-06-09T03:35:00.000-07:00

what was i thinking.i knew it,i bloody knew it.it was to good to be true.how could ive not seen it?!chances were small,and i knew there was someone else she liked.oh wells,back to the drawing board.now it seems blogging's to be disfunct from today.at least i got happy for a while.maybe after this,i finally have to courage to blow fann wong's tits.faris bydawi signing off...for the second time......shit..

2007-06-08T05:10:00.000-07:00

why the fuck am i feeling so green over someone who is not even my girlfriend,let alone a close one....period.jesus christ monkey balls!screw you guys,im going homeeeee...now,its time to write.

ive ended up to be your butters,hopes almost in gutters,but not alls lost.her name spells out to be different,in a way its my favourite chant,maiden in reverse its afays.goodness i can honestly say she's the most beautiful my eyes have ever gazed upon,might be a swan spawn,with a thug as a brother,a thug who cares at best,in french i'll call her ebeb,if u would undo that name,memories shall remain,for a simple being having lost a deared one,tears that cant be undone,for those tears having the privilage of running down those most sweetest of cheeks.and when the seasons over,she'll shiver,i'll quiver,will the massenger deliver,saying out her name and spell it backwards,end up to be hpesoj.im not making any sense.well,thats what 10 seasons of south park does to one's brain.
crocodile skin looks best on crocodiles.the picture looks good if the one's in it looks good.written in cursive and reach for the last meaningless words.find them and inverse,the person that i adore,makes us both look like nerds.

2007-06-05T22:18:00.000-07:00

foods,beverages,utensils,likely crew and shop outlook.that's all i gotta find out.cant wait for the first dollar...slimwrap for you?sure i can,but you are not even close to fat in my eyes.you jews cant lie,'cause i love that smile,lovely eyes,an oh my god body and wow,those sexy thighs.gotta make sure i dont end up your best friend,with the finest of blends,i'll tend and spend on being content.content?im such a loner when my 1ams are without you.anyone listening?wow what a terrific audience!go ahead,torture all u will!!and thy will do your bidding,mel gibson..cripple fight!!timmy timmy!!where were you when they build a ladder to heaven....awesom-O must rest cpu..we must take the one video to the video store and destroy it..6th graders!!oh maybe you can pretend im dead,and ignore me,and i'll love u even more.but then again,im not fat!just big boned....ah ohh,u make a wonderful butters impression..hell i tink im crazy bout your voice too......totally..

2007-05-31T06:25:00.000-07:00

Definition of boredom;
noun: the feeling of being bored by something tedious

im feeling so ennui...thank god for your pictures..its been the brightest of minutes of my very boring day......and i swear we are gonna meet one day...

2007-05-30T00:02:00.000-07:00

In a kinda droll way, I wanted to see you in my dreams. Nothing perverted nothing crazy or fanatical, just so that I was hoping that we could finally act out our crazy role plays in silver colored screams. Madness confessions without facial expressions. Your bodily possessions faking its own impressions. Why do I get a feeling I’m becoming irksome to you. Why does it feel like I’m chasing you with wooden shoes. You are so lovely..but I’ll get left behind..i’ll stay far back in line..just to make you happy..i’ll go unnoticed..and I’ll say I’ll be fine..this penchant is such a crime..but all I want is you to like me.. my graft, darth, garth, we’ll laugh, skin graft, pleasure craft, raft, shaft…syaf..

2007-05-26T07:58:00.000-07:00

wanna get high?

sure we do..we always get high..my marijuana.my neon lights when my eyes are shut.ignoring the words of my obnoxious little conscience,she's away,my demise,she smiles,i'll smile twice..oh remember!!when she's asleep,let her be,or she'll be in a state of a negative creep.oh my god,i love her too!she's accidentally cool!she's old school,yet she rules!funny funny funny funny!its like tertiary days all over again.where im in love,and feeling all nervous,lip service,and when its time for my state's service,im gonna call her on most nites,and we'll see whos the one crying.towels are your best friends.we have bruner together,and oh goodness me,ive used another one of your favorite quotes.i dont make much sense do i?but hey,miss gangster for a brother,i hope i make your day,cause' all i want is to make you smile..

2007-05-16T23:58:00.000-07:00

Start it off with a kiss,and forever in a motionless bliss,i found someone so gorgeous. Your brightest beauty does exists,with such grace there's nothing amiss,such presence its even prodigious.After the happiness in happy conversations,where we'll act out with real life alterations,it leaves us floored will our biggest smiles.For every virtual meeting with our own chat station,your humor leaves me in the greatest of sensations,making it satisfying and very much worthwhile.Absolutely amazing,i found in a girl,a person so stunning....oh wells,i think i havent felt this feeling for a while.

immense admirations and love for someone always appear the tallest and the boldest..almost too familiar like capital letters in a love poem..

2007-01-28T08:30:00.000-08:00

i swear my next few songs,im gonna make are songs of solace and friendship.if only life has got a save game option,so that i could delete the latest file and start it over.at least i got something off my chest,but it came back to me in a vicious blow.hope the knees keep them words,and never ignore me.because it might prolly kill me.

2007-01-13T09:33:00.000-08:00

if you have sex with a friend,your dick will fall off and head for the nearest drain which will be flushed to the ocean and into the hidden palace deep beneath the deepest sea only to be sucked in by a inter dimension doorway to a new universe where your penis will make love to bypenises and multiply and form an army large enough to destroy the human race and spit out more goo than peter north and david hasselhoff combined while they secretly destroy the planet lana spelled backwards and just so you noe their closest friends are round hanging ape like balls.if you admire a friend and never told her,you will probably be too late afterall.and a very beautiful neighbour said eating apples and strawberries makes one penis grow bigger.wow is the perfect reaction.

2007-01-05T08:58:00.000-08:00

hints and lies,the perfect disguise.those beautiful eyes,and the sexiest thighs.my only demise,was such a surprise.when responses dies,so does the love apprise.i like u so much,from me to myself,its the best advise.

2006-12-31T22:10:00.000-08:00

so much for a happy new year..i suppose it could have been worse,like its raining or something,but it still cant beat feeling lonely.yes my friends,the lonely.even deadlier than swallowing expired mothballs.at around 1am,im making new imaginary friends.3 in fact.but they dont do much though,one was making acid cocktails,another sharpening my penknife and the other sitting on my bedroom window ledge.seems like there's some server jam in the phone reception.man that's cruel.for the very ever first time im spending new year's alone.well actually ive made plans,but my parents are being a very menacing bitch.my mum especially.but they are,at the end of the day,the end of the year in this case,my parents afterall.im hearing fireworks across the border.never knew that i could actually cry hearing them.at least im doing it alone...happy new year to everyone....and to saddam,who gives a shit.

2006-11-01T07:18:00.000-08:00

January,1967 I cant seem to find my way back home.God damn this fog,i even nearly stepped on a pile of horse waste!The captain is going to be fuming,the journey's been delayed for a week now.Ale's all dried up,Margeret's gone with Jim Madeye,why would i even care anymore.A few more days till the day of reprisal,hope i can last that long. July,1969 The village seems to be holding it together,just when it seems to be lost.The remaining crew,Stevens,Hamilton and myself,will find a way out of this island.19 more days till the tribe says the shamans will preform the ritual.Must escape.Must not kill the newborn.Must get out of this island! February,1978 France!!Who would have tought we'll end up in France!The sea was unforgiving,but we survived! May,1981 My book is almost completed.It took me months to touch up,those French editors can be very touchy.I will never forget what Hamilton said on that raft.."Frasc,if we survive this,believe me on these words,you will be the famous one!"..rest in peace my good old friend. November 1981 Making my way back to England.Received a letter from my sister,saying that mother's very ill.Hope the flight's smooth. December,1984 The family's coming well.Age catchy up though.Heading to Melbourne next week.Ive got to say its been a good year,and the second baby's on the way.Maybe i'll name her Apple,that would be a good name.But she wants it to be Allesandria.Not that its not nice,but i'll think Apple sounds more juicier. July,1990 The doctors say ive got another 74hrs.Well,its not much,but i would love to donate my kidneys away.Hope someone reads this when im gone.

diaries can mean alot,and it contains memories tied in knots,

for every entry,it contains meaning,its there for you to spot.

remember the day,month and year,the answers are utterly near,

find them,and my birth rights are for you to plot.

2006-10-29T07:55:00.000-08:00

The people of today has got a serious problem.All doing things as they please,and forgetting what's important and what's not genuine.Nothing new perhaps.We are known to be the smarter of the species,the capable and proficient,the gifted knowledge self sufficient.I dont want to see my neighbours making a hazardous device that could destroy almost everything in sight.Why we doing this?Power maybe,or are we just plain ignorant?Take those manner and stance,put them in a forever holiday,we dont need doomsday devices,even in a game of chance.You dont win when no ones playing,or maybe,even when we are pretending.What if dreams are real?comics can do wonders,but it really sets you thinking.What if those mad people,are dreaming in reality?Wont it be great that way.When you get to love someone thats far out of reach,or eradicate one you truely detest.Maybe the leaders of the world are in reverie of dillusion.Maybe we need to spoon each other to finally shed some sense.Maybe,its time for me to to wake up.

2006-09-16T22:34:00.000-07:00

Enticing the niece.You either nibble,forage or graze.I beg your pardon,say what?Abhorrence, once they are, now loath the eye weren't.
Im so full of broken english, at least it all ends with something i want.

2006-09-01T07:52:00.000-07:00

act three, sin-free ; DERELICT ENGLISH OBJECT
scene 16 "
The chemist voided the glass dream. So fragile, it moves through the delusions with effortless lust. In comes the musicman, with him the perils of being in utter disgust. He comes with a quandary, with no solution, hoping for the chemist to clear his troubled mind. a mind full of emptiness. A mind full of bareness. A mind in void.
musicman : (worriedly) Im like a naked evil, so hard to overcome, so easy to succumb. Ive written the most intricate letters, but my verbal outcomed in fetters. I cant put together a simple sentence, to woo a lady, or sulk in repetence. Help me Chemist, for i need you now. Im at your mercy, for all your skills that i endow.
chemist : Nothing is wrong, my good friend. My brows are treaded, and your glee too? You worry to much, must have been the missed breakfast, or the galling cough. But do not fret, its all for a short while. In this neighbourhood, with residents full of madness, worrying gets you nowhere. Void will shadow you. So pucker up, and show the world your glowing beam.
musicman : How can one be happy, when you seem so jaded. Is there anything i could do, not to the extend of being persuaded? Ive grown into you, like a careless weed. Hahhahahaha well it seems ive grown into you, hope its not something to mislead.
chemist : When the time comes...for now, let me be void..now, dont you have something better to do?

2006-08-18T23:11:00.000-07:00

KARMAGEDDON

When all things good collide.When your naive smile gets denied.Mix your sins in a blender,to deal with the devil that's bona fide.Take a ride on the wild side.When your feelings no longer gets implied.When your dreams and reveries misguide,bloodied and tired,allied and fried.The passion of heist.When all hope gets finely diced.When your breath gets heavily priced,a spicy tryst just to get enticed.I guess second first impression counts.Least when u expect,it comes to you like a buckshot.Those nightmares with purple and blue polka dots,and dreams turning up like plague spots.Could never define love,what it really means in the form of a sentence.Its like having happy thoughts,while feeling full of repentance.With karmageddon you'll now the bright side of despair.No need for devotion or confidence,just full of desire with much hate to declare.

2006-05-31T20:16:00.000-07:00

I got dumped by every girl possible.i got these response from the women i my life..

me: Can I buy you a drink?
her: Actually I'd rather have the money.

me: I'm a photographer. I've been looking for a face like yours
her: I'm a plastic surgeon. I've been looking for a face like yours.

me: Hi. Didn't we go on a date once? Or was it twice?
her: Must've been once. I never make the same mistake twice.

me: How did you get to be so beautiful?
her: I must've been given your share.

me: Will you go out with me this Saturday?
her: Sorry. I'm having a headache this weekend.

me: Go on, don't be shy. Ask me out.
her: Okay, get out.

me: I think I could make you very happy.
her: Why? Are you leaving?

me: Can I have your name?
her: Why? Don't you already have one?

me: Shall we go see a movie?
her: I've already seen it.

me: Where have you been all my life?
her: Hiding from you.

me: Haven't I seen you some place before?
her: Yes. That's why I don't go there anymore.

me: Is this seat empty?
her: Yes and this one will be if you sit down.

me: Hey baby what's your sign?
her: Do not enter.

me: Your body is like a temple.
her: Sorry, there are no services today.

me: If I could see you naked, I'd die happy.
her: If I saw you naked, I'd probably die laughing

me: Where have you been all my life?
her: Where I'll be the rest of your life - in your wildestdreams.

i will keep on trying....

2006-04-28T00:41:00.000-07:00

Dark,cold and damp.In the shadows,covered with battered walls of medieval
presence,completed with the stench to make one weep.Don Damien cower in
silence,hoping for that ray of hope to be free.The demands for her release are
beyond sadism.With her family slowly depleting,the only one she could rely on
is her real family,her brother,who unlike herself,is none part of the Sofia Family.

Outside,Brandon Sofia ponders in anguish.Her sister kidnapped,his life now becomes a moving target.Should he flee,and leave his family for good,or should he aid Benito.Seeking refuge at Scully's cafe,with Benito badly wounded,he could just wait and fear for life.The price is too much,even for a ruthless being like Damien.No more bloodshed will be spilled,Brandon will do anything in his power to free his sister from The Red Canvas Organization.

2006-03-28T23:56:00.000-08:00

sHe's got fasting black lungs,made of clove splintered shardes.They're the kind that will talk.Through a weezing of coughs..And I hear her every night,in every pore,and every time
she just makes me warm..Freeze without an answer,free from all the shame.Must I hide,
because i'll never sleep alone.Look at how they flock to him.From an isle of open sores.
He knows that the taste is such.Is such to die for..And I hear him every night,on every street.The scales that do slither,deliver me from..Freeze without an answer,free from all the shame.Then I'll hide cuz,i'll never never sleep alone.Oh lord,said I'm bloodshot for sure.
Pale runs the ghost..

2006-03-20T23:13:00.000-08:00

Time is never time at all.You can never ever leave without leaving a piece of youth.And our lives are forever changed,we will never be the same.The more you change the less you feel.Believe in me,believe,that life can change, that you're not stuck in vain.We're not the same, we're different tonight.Tonight, so bright.Tonight.And you know you're never sure.But your sure you could be right,if you held yourself up to the light.And the embers never fade in your city by the lake.The place where you were born.Believe in the resolute urgency of now and if you believe there's not a chance tonight.Tonight, so bright.Tonight.We'll crucify the insincere tonight.We'll make things right, we'll feel it all tonight.We'll find a way to offer up the night tonight.The indescribable moments of your life tonight.The impossible is possible tonight.Believe in me as I believe in you, tonight...so bright...tonight..

2006-02-07T10:00:00.000-08:00

dear Juliet,
You know you want it.i could see it in your eyes.But some of
your feelings were'nt well advised.So stretch out your heart full size lengthwise,
rip it apart,tear it all open,or let it be incised.
dear Romeo,
You know you want it.A burning desire,hearts worn as jewelry.When
sweetest of kisses could smell like daisies,the sour hearts becomes so kitschly,
and the arrogance within grows so very greatly.
dear Mercutio,
You know you despise it.A hatred born with such great heights.Reddened
eyes only seen in bullfights.Violent fury only the devil dare to recite,to protect the
lovers from the glowing moonlight,from the treat exposed by the Capulet's plight.
dear Tybalt,
You know you want it.The enemy's blood upon your sharpened dagger.
to satisfy as a satisfying bragger.In the fantasise victory when the enemy clamor,
only to be known as an imprudent bearer.

dear lovers and haters, authors and actors. In a world of imperfection, its best to
break all barriers. Let all fear and anger be kept in closures, and let the emotions
control the pleasures..

2006-01-05T20:16:00.000-08:00

I thank god for creating indian food.They are the reason why chefs all around
the world feel inspired to cook.The power of indian food.Indian food itself is like
seductive art.A single stroke water colour painting of nasi briyani could easily
make the mona lisa look pennyworth.The power of indian food.More than
23 million people around the world are indian food devotees.(figures cannot be
found anywhere as they are kept secret by the UN.The figure above somehow
managed to find its way into my hard drive by an unknown intel.)The power of
indian food.Highly acclaimed writer Dan Brown is a well known indian food buff.
The food inspired him to write a two episode book series,and this very moment,
he is working intensively on the research.Entitled The Masala Code book 1,and
Prata & Demons book 2,will be released in 2010.The power of indian food.
Scientists in Venice discovered while preserving dinosaur bones that,a fossilized
mixture of food found near an excavation point.Further studies revealed that an
indian food term called demiscurojazk,or rojak in short,might be the main influence
behind this baffling food mixture.The power of indian food.Most non-indians would
try out indian food.Though i have neutral believes about malay food,indian food
remained the most sought after delicacy.(In ancient times,studies have shown
that the malay community had worked together with the indian community with
fine cookings.It was not until Mao Zhe Dong came into power and copied most of
the cookings,like fish head curry and otak-otak.)The power of indian food.Be a
convert now.Experience the spiritual power of indian cuisine.Try out the naan near
Mustafa centre.Or the chicken curry lemak near lee kwon seng music studio.THE
POWER OF INDIAN FOOD.

2006-01-04T20:18:00.000-08:00

"Make her part of the resistance?!Are you guys mad?!That mind of hers
is beyond our control!Making her part of this fight could be our biggest mistake!"

"She chould be our biggest asset.We learn from our mistakes William,and if she
is our biggest mistake,then she could give us the most important lesson of this
resistance."
William and Draven looked at each other,confused and bedazzled,not knowing what
to say.But The Death Fairy has got a point,and she could be the key to their already
locked mystified past.

"Then it must be done"said Draven,"Yuri must be released."

2005-12-22T10:50:00.000-08:00

i cant give a fuck anymore.i shouldnt have left the group.
i didnt saw wat they could gave me.i dont wanna be labelled
as a menace to the society.now i need one last favor from
my dearest neighbourhood buddies.where we could relive
those fucked up days.i shoud have gotten dat 24 sign on my
arm.oh plz god im losing my fucking mind.i knew i couldnt
get her,but i didnt saw a heartbreaking moment storming
at me.im sori if i left,but im coming back,to do one last act
of fun.hope its going to be fun.damn,i cant seem to trust
anyone.dis is the second time dis happened.but i still love
liana.so she is different.i swear to god i didnt see dis coming.
k tigers,one last act of fun.

2005-12-08T22:51:00.000-08:00

"If he were a villian,there would be at least a reason to hate him.If he got any integrity,
there would be the reason to love him.If he does not resemble me,i could forgive him.."

The Music Player engaged himself in recreation with his six string,and gave a free rein to an emotional melody.Muse with the sound,he gave notion to the words of Lord Askandria,the defeated villian so dearly hated by The Death Fairy.His pass clouded,only his true love he could remember,and now with a new added twist,he got a son he did'nt knew about.

"We are heading to Disun Star now,to a place they call the pimple farm.I've got a bad feeling
about this J.K.Maybe we should consult Yuri first."said William.
"Now is not a good time William,Draven is upset.He knows he failed her,and if Yuri finds out about her son,she might go at it alone.We can't face the cyborg known as The Red Guard
alone,but we can seek more infomation without getting any other party killed.Just the
three of us William.We must go alone."with a tired smirk,The Death Fairy mull over their
fate.
"Just the three of us..."

2005-12-06T17:05:00.001-08:00

"Act nonchalant...." the Music Player tells himself..till then,he ponders about what Askandria had told him,minutes before he vanished,like a stalker suspecting something amiss..

"fools....the three of you wont make it alive..as for you Draven,queen Annellissa would be disappointed in you,your imprudent lover...and your son..."
The Sadness Clown followed his companion to William's sky sliver the Impaller,as the Death Fairy attends to Draven's confusion. "Askandria is defeated.But only time will tell when the skies will be filled with vengeful armadas again.Rest my good friend,and soon we'll reveal the truth about Damien."......hearing this,the Music Player showed a rare smile,the first for the day,and thanked the Death Fairy..

Concealed in thoughts,abandoned in hearts,Draven worries for Yuri Lilyana..The start of a new undertaking,to uncover the truth about his forgotten son.

"On the pimple farm,to the red guard,Damien,i'm coming for you..."

2005-11-22T00:38:00.001-08:00

insane!!am i the only muthafucker with a brain,im hearing voices but
all they do is complain!how many times have you wanted to kill,everything
and everyone,now say you'll do it but it never will!!
i dont know anything about malevolent,sure as hell decedent!
walls!let me fall!fuck you idiots all!get a grip,dont let me slip till i drop the ball!!
insert,engage,betrayed,my god you are a fucking fraud!!
spin it around so i can spit it in his cocksucking face,i wanna leave without a trace,
because i dont wanna die in this fucked up original place!!
got a super dred bet with an angel drug head.like a dead beat singer,i wanna be
a sinner,an idolized bang for the industrious killer,throw a suicidal party and
im fucking guarenteed to snap!!
what do you need to see?you feel the impact?got to retract!!got to fucking
get back!!fields of motherfucking dejected morbid progeny!! evil wicked questions..

2005-11-17T21:41:00.000-08:00

we have noses that run and feet that smell..its was just a matter of time
before everything is being destroyed.
quicksands can work slowly and and boxing rings are square..as soon as you
figure it out,its me you will start to avoid.
we ship by truck and send cargo by ship..every single boy seems to fall for you,
like as though you are desired.
you fill a form by filling it out..i will only hope and love you,and with this broken
mirror,its hard to even be inspired.
an alarm goes off by making it go on..it was your gorgeous face,your flawless style
and your weight you put on that your friends claim.
your house can burn up as it starts to burn down..you completely melt me down,
with your harsh pesonality and infinite field of fame.
THE PIMPLE FARM,THE RED GUARD
IM COMING FOR YOU.

2005-11-15T00:03:00.000-08:00

Shed a tear 'cause I'm missin' you I'm still alright to smile. girl, I think about you every day now. was a time when I wasn't sure,but you set my mind at ease,there is no doubt you're in my heart now.Said, woman, take it slow it'll work itself out fine.All we need is just a little patience.Said, sugar, make it slow and we come together fine.All we need is just a little patience.I sit here on the stairs because I'd rather be alone.If I can't have you right nowI'll wait, dear.Sometimes I get so tense but I can't speed up the time.But you know love,there's one more thing to consider.Said, woman, take it slow and things will be just fine.You and I'll just use a little patience.Said, sugar, take the time cause the lights are shining bright.You and I've got what it takes to make it, we won't fake it,I'll never break it'cause I can't take it....just a little patience..

2005-11-08T16:47:00.000-08:00

I'll never leave you behind,or treat you unkind I know you understand and with a tear in my eye give me the sweetest goodbye that I ever did receive

u nearly ripped my heart with your random thought, was it at all random or something u really mean.wasted effort?learning a new habit to blow my nose,to god i feared for all my life,the prayers i send where not replied,all i wished for was her,not as a blooded family member..

2005-10-18T23:18:00.000-07:00

i'll be an actor,and you'll be an actress
we'll start off with a kiss,a tongue,before submitting to a warm mattress
i'm your average joe,and you are my beautiful princess
while the villians and crooks gazed with such tempest
they plot and scheme,to hurt your well-being
to lynch,to sear,or simply steal your viginity
as their evil laughter fades away indefinitely
the average joe will rise to match any obscurity
fielding seeds of hate,defying certain fate
the hero plant their heads with vengeful rage
the villians scatter,the crooks cracked under pressure
they slowly lose it,like a rat in a cage
celebrating in triumph,not looking at all average
the princess was enchanted,eyes fixed on her lover
sealing it off with a soft romantic kiss
lovers for the night,lovers in the mist..

2005-10-14T00:51:00.000-07:00

dearest Morpheus,
I have chosen my decisions without haste,but every night,it
remains the same.Waking up to despair,hour after hour,i find your leadership
fragile.Every sound dream you have given me,i ask you of one last favor,for i,
for once would love to find the will to awake.Hoping to see her there,only to be clouded
eventually.I have been unhappy,devious,but by dreaming about her,it was
bittersweet.You are the switchboard Morpheus.A dream giver.You rule the semi
conscious plane,within your empire paradise.By the way,a friend of mine,Nicole,has
got a sister named Denise,and a cousin named Sarah.Give them dreams of graduation
will ya.happy ones please.For now,im madly in love with an individual,as you might have
seen in my dreams,every single day.But only in dreams have my love found its path,
its seeking light,its way.I thanked you,for such wonderful memories,but just this one
favor i ask for,i beg you for my dreams and reality..to collide.
yours sincerely,
the music dreamer

9 * 1,5 * 1,2,3,8,23 * 3,4,5 * 1,2,3,8,9 * 1 * 1 * 4 ,5,10 * 8 * 0 * 0
* 3,4,5,6,7,11,18,19,20 * 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,14,15

P.S
In case you have forgotten who,
the numbers above are for you
Morpheus.Collaborate them in
my letter,to seek a poem.Oh,
ponder on the sentences...

2005-10-04T21:34:00.000-07:00

confessions from a suicidal hopeless romantic
who needs a heart when hearts can be broken
who needs a heart when feelings are left unspoken

despair?
its becoming a reality,becoming so unfair
numb?
coming up to my brain,not that you would care
hopeful?
unthinkable yet gullible,hopefully inseperable
scared?
of the outcome,the answer,and the near distant future
nonchalant?
beneath it all is a fool,so afraid of you
suicidal?
always crossed my mind,always involving you

6 * 1 * 7 * 5 * 2 * 4

numbers and figures to configure the fault
a number above for every awaken tought
to love the name,the battle to be fought
near my own domain,is my love's resort

2005-09-21T19:23:00.000-07:00

I wont admit defeat.The perils of love,death becomes her,so much so that im
weakened to the bone,afraid of the outcome,of the fucking answer.With just
a flicker,and a maiden funnybone sister rightfully helping me to be named,
to be heard,but fear and grace dont match,and worse is i cant stop thinking about her.
Maybe my number is up,or maybe its just me who should stop,but i wont let go of my one
crush today.Not tonight.Not tomorrow night.Not till my nights turn grey.

a nudge could cause a fall,in words they fell to the right,
collective answers overhaul,but her name is no where in sight.
the riddle and ode collide,for your beautiful mind to see,
faded hearts will subside,and this paranoia surrounding me.

2005-09-20T00:31:00.000-07:00

stupidity! stumble on every word,fumble on every line.arghh!!!
this month has got to be loneliest month ever...i hate it!!
but relax....crushes make u act weird.

2005-09-15T22:44:00.000-07:00

my grief is an open wound,we'll compromise,history will record this as a courageous but short lived act of resistance,so finnicky,how i wish i could read your mind,cock my brain to shoot my load,open up the first person view of a totally clueless me with nothing to find,evil icky corrupt picky as i was told,a vegetarian shark,I,take you,to be my lawfully wedded lover,to have and to hold from this day forward,for richer and poorer,in sickness and in health,to praise every fart and lit your every cig,to make you breakfast and wash your soiled underwear,i do...i just do.

2005-09-05T01:42:00.000-07:00

the agony of a sweetooth bitterness,here to prove once and for all that my blood machine is stomping to your beat,i cant be wasting precious time at some heartless gig,i waited with bated breath,do you realise how difficult life is when you are covered with razor sharp paralysis-inducing barbs,a heartbreak stampede is subtle,i need you,im falling in love with you,with a lost so deep,i need you now more than ever.

2005-08-31T22:36:00.000-07:00

nothing is what it seems when the love ions shifted,i've stopped believing in my own scared of girls ability,calculating the risks in my imaginary diary full of you and other assasinations,only my dearest i care to serve and dream about,love me please and i'll give you my all,even a suicidal shakesphere will mend his own heart when he envisions you...

for every army begins with a runner
for every war starts with a letter
the collective answers the name i'll die for
the answer itself is the one i madly adore

2005-08-19T21:34:00.000-07:00

Act nonchalant,killing is a reflex,counterfeit hearts,a life long vocation,you'd enjoyed pain as if it was edible,the money lure,killing joke,writhing in pain,long distance lying,DEATH INDUCING RHYMES,blossomed vanity,the maestro spends her time,the notice me project,golden sarcasm,daily affirmations,TO SELL IRONY,break the ice with a sincere compliment,a butterfly for the gorgeous human canvas,unremorseful neglect,a face for every bill,its beyond therapy,it doesnt make any sense,i was at hand for every disaster,gift for every heartbreak,cant you see that i love u?no?oh well,i'll try again.

2005-08-04T10:26:00.000-07:00

i feel home.its where i belong.round the bend.blood inked pen.
marsiling is a whole new world.MARSiling,as deduced,a few locals from MARS decided
to call it their new breeding ground rite here.starting off with the mat-rips,
the happy go lucky extraterrestrials that lurks everywhere.scientists have
gather much knowledge and conclude that they worked as dung collectors on
Mars,and abandoned their posts to find a better life here,at marsiling.little that they
know is in 10 years time,they will rejoin the garbage ranks.then there is this alien with indian
background with red eyes,thin bodied,tiger beer breath(how they know about beer,dont ask me.
must be the indian background),and talks to himself.he pretends to be the bus conductor,
but with a crooked twist.he conducts from the bus stop.swearing away the whole swear webster dictionary,he happily conducts himself.then,there's the queen.all hail invader Bedah,the
make up consultant.she must be a goth back at Mars,with the way she screams.and yeah,
her make up makes her booger attractive,and my eyes bleed from the inside.thank god
she doesnt swear,or else the alien indian,or indian alien,whatever,breeds with her and
create and army.Bedahlites.her hair must have a colony of insects,and if you ever get near her,
god bless you.till,my next post,stay tune and updated,with the friendly neighbourhood,
MARSiling....

2005-07-25T05:01:00.000-07:00

love appraisals
its getting the best of me,for i've realised i adore the learner,
so studious in those times,and she glows with the textbooks

can't be for real..speculations within the sacred heart and mind
making its way for affection,wanting to be heard
this has got to be a very sound dream
so lets explore the cause of all these thoughts
the very root,the extreme core
the fantasy within the fantasy
no wait!!in can't explain it!!she's been laminated on my mind,
every passing second,i was thinking of her.
her vanity kills,like my unattended bills
a tinking time bomb,a one punch merchant

well,i can ignore it,i cant deny it,i cant reason with it
but im so so much adoring you.

2005-07-08T21:20:00.000-07:00

this is insane
this is not for real.but it grows stronger everytime..why,i cant tell.
how cold and unfeeling it must seem to a love struck foreigner..
and when you realised your blood machine called heart ticks faster with her
in your sight,you become inured to the paranoia of constant insecurities..
toys can be broken..so does smiles..and with every unattended message,so does hearts..
but still,ive come to question my one most deepest concern.....

why have i fallen madly in love with her.

2005-07-04T21:39:00.000-07:00

spinning in my room,you know you got me stoned
in this love platoon..that i made for you..
and in your heart shaped throne,with all the love i've shown
a timeless line..of cupid signs

true,i've fallen for you,but i guess you knew

the best days are the days when you're not away
we'll hold on tight we'll dance and let our body sway
we'll do things tonight we'll do it your way
we'll do things tonight until the next day
and your smile will surely make my day better
no way im going to make myself suffer
i wont stop i'll show them that i'll be your lover
star crossed,undying,a love fool forever...

smile at me

2005-07-01T18:56:00.000-07:00

just another day,another day's the same and I start it off by calling you but then i still cant remember why im falling..
was there something i said was there something i did or did we just misunderstood,but then i'll just be stupid and take the blame for nothing..

you are so lovely,but i'll get left behind..i'll stay far back in line,just to make you happy
i'll go unnotice,and i'll say i'll be fine..is loving u such a crime,all i want is you to smile at me

forgive me if im new,i dont mean to preach,i don't mean to lecture and i'll stay out of reach,but then your face just cannot seem to leave my head..please help me
all i want is the best for you and ive changed myself into something new but then you seem to hate every part of me..now im losing it..

ode to my good friend

2005-06-30T03:24:00.000-07:00

i'll be with you till its safe and sound,
i'll make your frown turn upside down..
now smile for me and call me what you like,
don't ever stop,till your true love is found..

marigold

2005-06-30T02:31:00.000-07:00

Thank you for dropping by,and spending time here awhile..
the clouds part when you arrived,so share yourself some bragging rights..
pardon me for being impolite,that i'll change,with all my might..
inveigh to myself to bind our lives,and kill all irrational rhymes..
Post my views on telling lies,my crush on you is'nt dued till i die.....

the faded one

2005-06-27T18:49:00.000-07:00

my heart bleeds,cover with blood stain patches,and my face aged,complete with multi coated scratches...
as my eyes oscillate,with a trembling body..darkness resides,with no one ever feeling sorry...
you touch me i will rip you apart,i'll dig in,and grab that thing you call a heart...
so much anger,blinded by love,and all hope lost,eventually im hated..with so much anger,fuelled by love,i'll be in oblivion,and soon faded.......

the first waves

2005-06-27T01:23:00.000-07:00

testing,testing,testicles,testing..

forgive me if im new, i dont mean to lecture and i dont mean to preach..
but i need to breakout from me,before its out of reach..